guilty holiday.......

1 September 2011 sunny day ☀ I m so hot!!!

Today…..nthing special happened to me…is a very lame…common…normal day…I conduct my life as usual…..n..everything seem like so nice for me…wakakaka~~~^^

I help cfern to find out her surat tawaran,but I fail….i cant find out..i try with my ic no. to login, but it still didn’t work out…..haiz….i oso feel very anxious as cfern …I really wan help her….. oh….my dear god, pls make me hv the chance to help my dear frenz~I will do it nicely one….i really wan help her…as she oso treat me very nice….

Leo seem like not so well today…he used his rest period of his work time online, I chat wif him on fb…  I think…he sick caused by yesterday he went out when he had just recover from cough…so worry him…. Hope he can always healthy^^

i….stil cant know my feeling of him….smtimes…I think out his good,n like him at that moment, smtimes…I feel unsafe of no saw him for so long time….i oso dunno…whether he is being serious to me….but..whtever, time will tell me…….

I think….my personality now…is caused by him….he give me love… hope… happiness… sad…. angry… jealous… n finally disappointment n ambiguous of the believing of others…. But…at least, he did love me…care me…fond me… I feel happy…we had a super duper close distance between us…. I do remember those memories between us…he too…

Lozz introduce her cousins to me…honestly…..i dun like them… n cant feeling well in the chatting of those dirty mad words(***blah blah blah)but I stil dun show it off..as lozz is my frenz..she now start learning English…haha, she always ask me smthing about English grammar, sentences…smthing like that… haha^^ fortunately, he just ask me smthing easy one…coz I didn’t hv a good English…wakaka~xp she just call me Ms.Tan or Teacher Tan..oh god…I didn’t hv the quality for being called like that lah~~~ ==

That’s all for today….3 more days go…..to the date I hv back to cyberjaya~~I will miss here…coz here got so many delicious food which make me always seem like a fat gal at here~~I confess…I m piggy~~~　(ˉ(∞)ˉ)

　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　Wht a lame day= =

                                      Just from…yuki1107

emo holiday~

31 August 2011 sunny day ☀ I m so hot!!!

Today is really like a mess. I can’t accomplish even a simple work. Really feel stress about it.    o(︶︿︶)o      haiz~~~

Anyway, I have learnt something through this incident. It will become a meaningful experience in my growing up process. I know,I can grow up into a mature person later. I m sorry, but today… I m not a good girl… as I have tell a lie…To Leo. I cheat him…that I m not free in doing something about teacher training course. Actually, I scare…I scare he is the guy like my frenz said...not truly love me.. But, after I tell him that I m not free, he still treat me very gentle, n feel ok with it..At that moment, I know that…the person is not sincerely give out love is me… I m an evil, is me…break the promise, not him…I m gonna cry… I m so touching to knew it….he is stil the guy, who can really  love me forever, who can realize all the promises n all my dreams…But…I m timid enough to tell him this truth, coz I m guilty.. to face him… now only, I scare..to loss him.. I dun wan he leave me after he knew the truth.. I feel unsafe, as I think I may not the one who suit him…as I m ugly in appearance n in psychology, as he is so nice….he is ady hv cough,but he still wan meet me. And he knew, everything ugly about me, as we ady knew each other so well… sometimes, he can accept n tolerate with me, love me n sayang me like a child.❤ from him, I start understand, what is love…I duuno what I m doing on him… as why he can still crazy like me as I m not a mature girl who really know how to love this excellent guy he is…!!!why this stupid guy…???why he is so silly…mayb…not being together wif him is the best way to him…?i wonder…..

Now…. He had change…become a gentleman, not a ego man like past…^^ I m so happy n so proud of his progress of making himself so endearing…woohoo~I confess at here,I love him so much, but both of us till now didn’t utter out the 3 words…the future of us…for now… is still an unknown.. o(>﹏<)o   I wonder…..whatever will be coming out between of us..is it being together or not….???

He go out alone, but till now :2135, he still noy back to hostel hv a rest.. so worry him~I send him a message but he doesn’t reply it…Leo…where r u now? R u still sick?r u ok with back hostel by urself?haiz~Leo, pls reply me…u hv make me cry….

 I dunno whether we will being together or not in the future, but I really hope he will happy always…..God bless u, my dear Leo ♥

                                                                                                                                          　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　　

31 August 2011 sunny day ☀ I m so hot!!!

Today is really like a mess. I can’t accomplish even a simple work. Really feel stress about it.    o(︶︿︶)o      haiz~~~

Anyway, I have learnt something through this incident. It will become a meaningful experience in my growing up process. I know,I can grow up into a mature person later. I m sorry, but today… I m not a good girl… as I have tell a lie…To Leo. I cheat him…that I m not free in doing something about teacher training course. Actually, I scare…I scare he is the guy like my frenz said...not truly love me.. But, after I tell him that I m not free, he still treat me very gentle, n feel ok with it..At that moment, I know that…the person is not sincerely give out love is me… I m an evil, is me…break the promise, not him…I m gonna cry… I m so touching to knew it….he is stil the guy, who can really  love me forever, who can realize all the promises n all my dreams…But…I m timid enough to tell him this truth, coz I m guilty.. to face him… now only, I scare..to loss him.. I dun wan he leave me after he knew the truth.. I feel unsafe, as I think I may not the one who suit him…as I m ugly in appearance n in psychology, as he is so nice….he is ady hv cough,but he still wan meet me. And he knew, everything ugly about me, as we ady knew each other so well… sometimes, he can accept n tolerate with me, love me n sayang me like a child.❤ from him, I start understand, what is love…I duuno what I m doing on him… as why he can still crazy like me as I m not a mature girl who really know how to love this excellent guy he is…!!!why this stupid guy…???why he is so silly…mayb…not being together wif him is the best way to him…?i wonder…..

Now…. He had change…become a gentleman, not a ego man like past…^^ I m so happy n so proud of his progress of making himself so endearing…woohoo~I confess at here,I love him so much, but both of us till now didn’t utter out the 3 words…the future of us…for now… is still an unknown.. o(>﹏<)o   I wonder…..whatever will be coming out between of us..is it being together or not….???

He go out alone, but till now :2135, he still noy back to hostel hv a rest.. so worry him~I send him a message but he doesn’t reply it…Leo…where r u now? R u still sick?r u ok with back hostel by urself?haiz~Leo, pls reply me…u hv make me cry….

 I dunno whether we will being together or not in the future, but I really hope he will happy always…..God bless u, my dear Leo ♥

                                                            　　　                                                          Truly wish u,           

                                                    Just from..yuki1107(雨·立停)